It’s such a sad realization when I wake up and have to remind myself that I’m not at home, that I can’t see my girlfriend or hang out with my friends. When my dreams become my escape! That’s usually because something in my life isn’t feeling right. Lately it hasn’t and I’m just so terrified, the last time this happened I was heart broken.
The last time…
I abused her trust, now I’ve lost it! I got to caught up in jealousy I wasn’t thinking straight! She knew I’d do this, what does that say about my character? I knew if I called her on it she would get defensive I knew that that friendship would come up. I knew that eventually the perfect couple would come crashing down, but not like this. A decade long friendship? The only thing...
First lying then what? I hate myself for what I did, I absolutely hate myself!!! I don’t want to get outta bed and I don’t want to go to school anymore and I’m tired of living this far from home! I’m so scared and I just hate that I’m all alone!! Now I’m crying!! Great!!
I lied about playing video games my roommate brought ppl over to drink and I had to take care of then as the only sober one, watching my roommate hook up and my friend from rugby hooking up with girls while a drunk chick is passed out in my roommates bed and the rest are on the floor, the whole time I’m alone trying to cope with the myriad of emotions going through my head as I’m...
You're Perfect Just The Way Are
Whenever I would hold her in my arms or hold her hand or kiss her lips I felt like I could fly! My signature was kissing her on the forehead, it gave her security and that made me feel good that she felt safe with me. It feels good knowing that I can bear her problems for her her every secret and deepest thoughts because if she had no one to do that she probably wouldn’t be the always...